Xiu Gou's Taming Record

Chapter 129 Ideal Relationships

Bai Xinran turned and walked towards her room, her steps slower than usual, her shoulders drooping slightly.

"Come back." Yu Heng's voice came from behind.

Bai Xinran was taken aback and turned around: "What's wrong?"

"Are you unhappy?" Yu Heng leaned back on the sofa and looked at her.

"No," Bai Xinran said, but she didn't look at him.

"Tell me the truth," Yu Heng said.

Bai Xinran stood there, pursed her lips, and said, "A little..."

Yu Heng patted the spot next to him: "Come here."

Bai Xinran walked back and sat down on the sofa.

Yu Heng moved closer to her, saying, "Tell me, what's wrong?"

Bai Xinran looked down at her hands: "I don't know why..."

"Because I went to a hotel with someone this afternoon?" Yu Heng asked directly.

Bai Xinran suddenly raised her head, her eyes wide: "How did you know I knew you went to a hotel with someone?"

Yu Heng laughed: "When I came back, your little dog nose was sniffing around there the whole time."

Bai Xinran blushed and pursed her lips: "The taste is just so obvious..."

"So you're unhappy because of this?" Yu Heng looked at her.

"I just feel... you and Teacher Qin, and this afternoon with other girls... why..." Her voice trailed off, she paused, looked up at him, "why don't you eat me?"

Yu Heng chuckled upon hearing this: "How do you know I didn't go with Qin Lu?"

"It tastes different!" Bai Xinran said confidently, "It tastes different from Teacher Qin's."

Yu Heng laughed even harder: "Should I send you to be a police dog?"

Bai Xinran blushed even more and buried her head in his chest: "You're making fun of me again."

"This is a compliment." Yu Heng pulled her closer to him, nuzzling his chin against the top of her head. "Okay, don't be upset."

He patted her back gently: "You are different from them."

Bai Xinran listened quietly.

"To me, they are just women," Yu Heng said, "but you are different. You have another identity, or rather... you are trying to define another identity."

His hand rested on her waist, his fingertips slowly caressing her skin: "So we need to be more careful."

Bai Xinran looked up at him and asked, "What's your identity?"

"What do you think?" Yu Heng looked at her. "It's not like you can just take a nap and it'll be fine."

Bai Xinran pursed her lips: "Then what should we do?"

"That's why I'm starting you with simple tasks now. You're a beginner, a newbie. The reason you want this kind of relationship is simply out of curiosity and longing." He paused, "but you don't understand what this kind of relationship is like."

Bai Xinran didn't speak, her eyes showing a hint of confusion.

"But I know," Yu Heng's voice lowered, "that kind of relationship isn't anything special; it's just about fulfilling a certain need."

"Even the people who used the names Sade and Masoch were considered mentally ill at the time," he continued. "It's only through years of exploration, research, and summarization that this has become a culture. Now it's becoming increasingly mainstream."

Bai Xinran blinked: "Then..."

"But its definition is different for everyone," Yu Heng interrupted her. "For most people, it's a seasoning in life. For some, it's food."

He looked at her: "Life would be bland and tasteless without seasoning. But without food, you would die."

Bai Xinran nodded as if she understood but not quite.

"And even though they're all condiments, their status is different." Yu Heng gently circled her neck with his fingers. "Sour, sweet, bitter, and spicy are all flavors, but it's okay not to eat sour and spicy foods, but it will cause problems if you don't eat sugar and salt."

He smiled and said, "So this kind of culture is already in our lives, it's just that some people regard it as an important part of their lives, and you and I are one of them."

Bai Xinran's heart beat a little faster.

"So you need to be more careful," Yu Heng said, his tone becoming more serious as he looked at her, "because your threshold will be higher, ordinary intimate relationships will no longer satisfy you, and your life will no longer be the same as before."

Bai Xinran was silent for a moment, then asked softly, "Then... are you doing this for my own good?"

"I guess so," Yu Heng said. "At least I need to let you know what kind of future you've chosen."

"The future I've chosen..." Bai Xinran repeated, then looked up at him, "The future I've chosen is one where I follow you."

Yu Heng looked at her without saying a word.

Bai Xinran lowered her head again: "I understand... You want me to think it through."

"Hmm," Yu Heng responded. "We talked about this before; there are many people in lower positions who want redemption and love."

Bai Xinran nodded: "Yes, I have."

"But there is no love or redemption in this culture, only desire and depravity," Yu Heng said with a smile. "It's just that some people are dominated by desire, while others can control their desires."

"Being dominated by desire... and dominating desire..." Bai Xinran nestled in Yu Heng's arms, repeating softly, "It sounds like the person who dominates desire is more powerful?"

"It's more sobering, but also more tiring," Yu Heng said with a smile. "It's easy to get caught up in it, just indulge your instincts, but then you can't feel the joy of the culture."

"Then...how did you know?" She looked up, searching his eyes in the dim light, "that what I need isn't indulgence and instinct?"

Yu Heng chuckled softly: "If that's the case, then I probably wouldn't be the one teaching you. In today's society, it's very easy for women to indulge in debauchery and depravity if they really want to."

"So...it's not just about you accepting me," she probed, slowly gathering her thoughts, "it's also about me needing to have a comprehensive understanding of this culture?"

"Yes." Yu Heng nodded affirmatively, his tone carrying a hint of approval. "This is the rationality and awareness among the three basic principles. Only with these two prerequisites can there be consent. It's a two-way selection and shaping process. It's easy to enter this kind of relationship, but difficult to exit. Many people get lost halfway through, mistaking distortion for normalcy and harm for love, or conversely, seeing genuine guidance and rules as oppression and running away. I want to ensure that, at least with me, you make your choice based on understanding and comprehension. Even if one day in the future our relationship changes or ends, what you gain from this relationship is not just some red marks and pleasure, but something that allows you to understand yourself better. This is also the ideal relationship. Ultimately, it should be returned to society. However, in reality, very few people will actively end this kind of relationship. As long as there are no problems, they will think about it for a lifetime."

"I... I think I understand now." She sniffed, her voice a little hoarse. "Thank you..."

Bai Xinran felt very lucky to have met such a serious person as Yu Heng right from the start.